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Nothing will be the same anymore. You have left me for good…I had so much to say to you, so many pictures to show you, so many things to describe to you. But now, who am I to show them to? Who am I to share my stories with? You have been just so near me since the day I am born..so so close…but why?

I know I chided you on the phone when you went into coma; it is all because you say you will wait for me to come back. Didn’t I say I will find you the first thing I get back? Perhaps mum and dad knows I will blame you,they asked me to tell you not to wait for me myself. Do you know saying those words to your ears..seems to rip my heart away?Do you know I am the one talking to you that day? They said your breathing quickened when u hear me talking to you.Is it for real?

Now you are gone, I am not given a single chance to hold you and say goodbye. But I think you have suffered long enough..i think it is time to let you go…I release you of your promise…grandma..i will never forget you..you are part of me..part of what I am today..and part of what I will be in the future…

Thank you for everything. My mind is full of the memories of you…Grandma…I cannot tell you not to leave me…but it aches for me to let you go…………..

halo…i m at Mulheim,germany now..the northern part of germany(in Edwin and Ricky’s house)…before I start talking about my holidays..I would like to stress here that..the house Ricky and Edwin are staying in now is SUPER beautiful..very nice,so lucky they do not have to pay a penny for it..

Actually we just came back from our holidays in Netherlands and Belgium for a total of 5 days and four nights,yup..travelling again..will start working again next monday=p..

So,in Belgium we went to Brussel,Bruges and Antwerp(the city of diamond)..In Brussel we just walk around the town,to the Grote Markt where we saw the Mannekan Piss..and many many chocolate shops..In Bruges we followed the free map for young travellers,to look for their famous pancakes and waffles..overall we had around 2 waffles per person…We found 1 shop that sells take away fresh food that looks so delicious,so we bought 1 kg of pancakes,500g of curry wurst(sausages) and 500g of spaghetti for our brunch!and it costs us around 3 euro per person only..glad it is affordable..so off we went to eat the food in the nearest park..while we are eating suddenly came a man,well..he doens’t look like a beggar..but he came to us and said "I am so hungry,can i have a piece of wurst?"..can we say no?of course not!being the kind and young travellers we just let him hav a piece..haha..On the way back to our hostel in Bruges at night,we saw a few people of weird religion(those wearing black coats,necktie and a hat,and most of them grows beard) chanting weird prayer?s in a room behind a church..are they called momons?(ajaran sesat)I am not so sure…

Netherlands by far is the best and most exciting place that i had visited so far..We went during spring,we get the chance to visit Kaukenhof,Europe’s biggest flower garden which opens only 3 months every year from March to May..and there i saw the most beautiful flowers!!!tulip..which are my favourite,of all colours and shapes i should say..fields and fields of tulips..at the moment i feel that is one of the happiest moment in my life,just that lack the presence of someone..hehe..Amsterdam is one of the most exciting city!!once we got outside the train station we saw 2 gays french-kissing on the bridge near the river..my goodness..it just churns our stomach..besides that,it is Koenigsday when we went there,so we can see lots of people in orange walking around and the celebration is really grand!even the roads are blocked..no trams of cars aloud at most of the streets in Amsterdam..and the eve was the best..everyone went club hopping..and its OPEN AIR CLUBBING!stages are set,and there were lots of performance..one caught our eye,for it’s a performance by transexuals..and there are one daring group!but..sad to say..there was this ang moh guy who took advantage of me while I am busy watching the performances..he put his hand over my shoulder and kissed me even when i was pullin so hard away!and i can see the faces of Ed,sufen,peichie and ricky with their eyes wide open in front of me..all too stunned to act..stupid fella!

In Amsterdam we also went to the Red light district where we can see the prostitutes standing behind the glass door in their lingeries,seducing customers..you can also get drugs anywhere in Amsterdam…

we did not get to go Luxembourg because the time is too packed..haha..

well..i think this post is getting way too long..i should stop now..though there are lots more to tell…haha..

;(….

You are the one..

You are the one who had been so close to me since birth

You are the one who took good care of me when mummy is at work

You are the one who played with me,remember the ‘Kiki Lala’?

You are the one who took afternoon naps with me

You are the one who taught me all the ‘teochew’ sayings

You are the one who cooked all the nice food n feed me

You are the one whom I hide behind when I am being caned

You are the one who pulled me away to stop the childish quarrels
You are also the one I am rude at during my rebellious years

Do you know..

You are the one who is always sat on the chair in the living room when I am back

You are the one who always ask what type of kuih I wan to eat

You are the one who makes all of them the next day just for me

You are the one I watch Chinese opera with

You are the one who kept our family together after granpa passed on

You are the one who cooked al the nice Chinese New Year food

You are the one who is worried I will not have enough to eat

You are the one whom I called for when I have leg cramps at night

You are the one whom I force to say ‘Goodnight’ in English

You are the one..The strong one..

You are the one whom I bade farewell 3 times before I came

You are the one whom said you are proud of me

You are the one who petted me like a little kid when I hugged you

You are the one I called granma

You are the one who promised to wait for me to come back, I believe you..

But..will you recognize me when you see me then?

Someone asked me how old am I today..Without thinking I answered 21..but then I hessitated,n say..oh no!Actually I will be 22 this year..how time flies…

Closing my eyes,visuallizing the years that had flown by..from Kindergarten to primary school to secondary and to university at last..First I am a junior..then I am half a junior and now when I finish my internship I will be a senior!this had set me thinking..

Years spent innocently from kindergarten to primary,enjoyably in secondary school..but becomes more complicated as we grow..decisions that cannot be made by an instant answer of ‘yes’ or ‘no’ but requires serious considerations..

Flipping back the chapters of my life..physically,spiritually,mentally,emotionally..etc….

Chapter 1:Growing up vertically accompanied by horizontally- checked

Chapter 2:Growing up emotionally-checked,i guess..

Chapter 3:Expanding pouch size-not checked

What else do we need to grow up in?…Cannot think of anything anymore..anyone?

As I sat under a big oak tree

A cold breeze blew past me

Suddenly

A turmoil starts to awaken

Inside my fragile heart

I believe in you

I believe in myself

But…

As I touch the surface of the bark

I feel it as dry as my heart

The absence of your care

The absence of your love

Leaves it a desert

As the sun hides behind the clouds

A leaf fell down on my lap

On the leaf is a green caterpillar

Signifies the start of a fragile life…

A life that needs all the courage

A life that needs all the will

To start a new phase 

As a colourful butterfly…

Not as sweet as the nectar

Nor as bitter as the gourd

Not as sour as the lemon

Nor as spicy as the peppers

Such are what life brings…

Do not hang on the vines too tightly

For maybe one day autumn will come

To take away your spine

To leave you nothing but yourself

Fall you will

But..

Take charge of your life

Crawl if you have to…

As you are the special species…

                                  -Angie-

backpacking is not easy as it seems..last time i used to think that one just have to carry a bag on the back and walk around..but the truth is it is not..for a 3 days trip and the average time we carried the bag was only 2 days,you can never imagine how pain and tired our shoulders were..with a map in our hand and the heavy bag behind us,we just walk around..

before anyone want to start the journey do make sure you have made lots of preparations,do your homework thoroughly..because it can CERTAINLY make ur life much easier…and being tight on budget..luckily we had our journey planned out carefully..even by getting the Metro map(train map) way beforehand..

but overall the trip was fun,around our budget..and a chance to see new places,it is certainly a dream come true for us..

by the way..france does not have as much blondies as in germany..most of the girls have dark hair..but mayb their taste in clothings overall is better,i guess..haha..

halo people..i am back..well,apart from having my internship in Germany i got the chance to tarvel around too..and last weekend we went to Paris..among the places that we went were the Eiffel Tower,Arc d Triump,The Louvre Museum,Picasso museum,Wine museum,La Fayatte,Versailles,Sacre Cour…etc..etc..

I wonder how many of you knew that i am am afraid of height..so going up the Eiffel tower is actually a torture and joy for me(strictly torture for me alone,because this does not apply to sufen and edwin,the lovebirds)..haha..y torture??because we had to queue up on the freezing night to buy the ticket,and sad to say..

1.We can only go up to the second level..not the third which is the peak because it is closed for the night..

2.I am scared of height!!!!

but..Eiffel tower at night is really breathtakingly beautiful..we reached there at 8 pm and just at that time the blinking lights are up!n voila!only the word ‘wow!’ can be uttered by us..the view from the second level is also perfect!and we the singles there are accompanied by full moon that night..from the tower we can see Paris by night..

Arc d Triumph..is an arc!haha..to get to the top..you have to climb 284 steps..and when i am here i wished you Happy Birthday!hehe..

Next,to the Louvre museum..here we saw the real Mona Lisa smile..and i tried my very best to get the best shot by squeezing my way up to the front..but i cant get a nice shot because the lady behind keeps pushing me with her tummy!sweat!!Apart from Mona Lisa smile,we also saw lots of paintings..and i am mesmerized by one painting,entitled Innocence..it is a painting of a young girl who looks so innocent..Sculptures..Goddess of Love(which hands are never found)..loke,while looking at the sculpture I prayed for u(people who read his blog will get what i mean)..wahaha..and there is also the Wings of Victory..

Picasso Museum..contains arts that us,the engineering students will never understand…

La Fayatte..a shopping haven for ladies..rich ladies!because they have all the designer clothes that costs a bomb!and somehow..looks weird..haha,sorry..don’t know how to appreciate..

Versailles..used to be a palace..the gardens are..OMG!i dont know how to describe..see from the pics that wil be posted soon frens(after i sort them out)..

Wine musuem..we drank 3 types of wine there..red,white and another one..is it rose wine?i think so..

haha..thats all for now..have to get back to my ‘real’ work..